His Friends... My Friends.

Feel like crying... hurts a damm lot.

Hurts like hell.

A rift huh.

There's a reason why I said that once Dominic leaves me, I'll excommunicate myself completely from the AJ circle and everything that has the most remote connection to him...

... I'm a coward. I admit it...

His friends, my friends.

Who treasures who more? The question lies in how much either of us is valued.

Every word, every sentence is steeped in chillness. I can't bring myself to be MYSELF, towards him.

A wound that is plunged so deeply in does not heal in a day.


My friends... no. His friends?.

Whose friends?.

When they go out with him, I'm not included.
When they go out with me, he's not included.

I'm sick and tired of excuses.

If you want me as a friend, don't hide the truth. Just say that he's coming, and allow myself to reconsider the decision.

Its not the same anymore. Is it?

There's a massive rift between us that spans time and space.

You're right. I can't forgive him for the hurt he has inflicted on me.

Time can heal wounds, but the scars are eternal.


I don't think I'll be able to look into his eyes without vengence anyway.


There's a reason why there's a saying that couples who break up can never be friends again.


In fact, its lucky if they are not enemies.


One of the greatest mistakes I made was to neglect friends during my time with him.
I should have known better.


what I really want to do now is hit something really really hard.


I just dont understand how he can treat everything as though nothing happened.


I got 2 paths to choose now.

To love, or to hate.

I'm not an apathetic person.

If I love him, it will severely hurt me, if I hate him, I will be excommunicated from our mutual friends.

I would gladly have a thousand knives cut in me then to make this decision...

IT HURTS LIKE HELL YOU KNOW?????!!!!


no.... I guess you don't know.






but the path I choose is to continue loving you.
As much as it hurts me I'll continue to be there.

Its ridiculous every time you call me kor. But that's the closest we can be. Nothing else.

If I could turn back time, I would have rather have left it at that.


but to our mutual friends, you'll have to understand that doing this will not resolve anything. It will only make me hate him more.




what on earth is more painful then endless torment? It runs, over and over again. The blades slice into your flesh slowly and delibrately. They sink into your nerves, and you scream in agony.
Its worse then agony, its twisted pain.
They rip apart skin, and sink acid into your bones. Nails tear through muscle and hands snap joints.

but you can't die. You feel every bit of pain searing through your body, ever nerve only sends pain and more pain...

Now multiply the pain by a thousand, then multiply it by a million.

... you're now somewhat close to knowing how I feel.




it hurts...... *cries*